YWednesday, July 30, 2008
I am not being difficult here, I juz wan to have a life that everyone can enjoy. I juz wan to go on leave, leave all the unhappy stuff here, and enjoy the breeze in bintan, and shop all i wan in bangkok, and eat for all i care in malaysia. but i am unable to do tat. life is not simple as it is, mayb this is juz one of the challengers that i have to face in the working world. But i am unable to accept tat life is so unfair to a certain extreme extent, that he will actally protect the same species as he is, but dun u think tat he should actually be sensitive to one feelings ? I never felt so helpless in my whole life, this is the first time to be honest. Am i being so soft hearted ? I already tell him wat i think alrayd, but it seems tat the more i tok abt it, the more he has more comments to my explaination. Wat kind of superior is tat ? I almost drop a few tears in front of him. But it seems pointless to do tat. In tat kind of situation, I really dun know wat to do, should i continue, or should I juz stay on and carry on with my work. He alrady have a bad impression of me, but it seems that no matter how hard i do, he doesnt seem to notice mi at all. A good superior actually assess a person equally, but it doesnt seem to happen on him. I am not fussy, either am i being a difficult person to handle. I really do appreciate when all my collegaues do actually give mi some token of appreciation when they insisted, but do tat matters to me ? My pay rise and bonus is still up to him. If he thinks that i am not being responsible, i am not responsible to him no matter how hard i try. So wat is the point of giving mi all the gifts ? I do appreciate really, so thank you. Let put it this way, I always stay positive, so that I can look forward to the days ahead, whenever there are negative stuff, I will always turn into positive, but still, it is not easy as it seems as u are dealing with a difficult boss. But i will always try my best.
I will still give my best shot. Though i feel like crying sometimes. IT seem tat nobody understand where i coming from...
My mind is so complicated.....